i am someone with an imagination that is out of this world...you might say i am an ordinary human being but my brain thinks and works from out of this world. falling madly inlove is something i still haven't experience but hopefully that will not happen until nine years from now. i would love to travel the world and stay in japan and live a wonderful and successful life!
I will not lose hope… I know that this hope I have is just mere reason out so that I won’t leave I only have 4 more minutes before I need to go back home.
I don’t have to worry if I cry… It’s raining so no one will see. I’ll cry till the 4 minutes pass This has been going on and on and on for so long I stay here in this park Waiting for mr. umbrella man… “Mr. umbrella man will come” that’s what I always say
everyday I cry, it starts when I have only 4 minutes left I’m still waiting… 2 minutes have past, 2 minutes more and I’ll go home I’m soaking wet, I did not bring my umbrella Hoping he’ll share his with me …a minute more and it’s over… I told myself this is the last day.
Now it’s over…
I stood up and left… He did not come… I haven’t told you who he is yet, He’s the man who told me he’ll come, he’s the man who told me to wait, He’s the man who told me not to lose hope, he’s the man who left me… That man who told me that has been away for already 4 years. Now was his last chance but he did not come.
I’m walking down the street when his umbrella was above me, Covering me from the rain He looked at me and smiled.
Now I know he’s back. I told you… I will not lose hope…
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smile
This was a poem I made way back. About 3 years ago I wrote this and now 3 years later I found it as I was putting away my stuffs. The thing I like most with this poem is that every time I read it I can only imagine the guy in the poem as HYUUGA NATSUME-Sama!!! And when he grows up as a teenager he’ll become kagami-oujisama!!!
[This poem is about a girl’s feeling about her first love]
When I was a kid I saw this boy, Trying hard to make a circle in a monkey bar. I felt there was a blush on my cheek. He was cute, I thought, and I was merely a meek. I went to him not saying a word. That everything turned in my whole world. You made yourself stop. You looked at me then walked away, I said good luck And you looked back You smiled And I smiled back…
(I am thinking of my next new post… and maybe the title would be wating for Mr. umbrella man.)
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Thursday, October 29, 2009
Boredom is the source on why people do unusual things. These are the things I know you will do when you are bored rigid.
~the first thing you’ll do is find movies to watch in your house
~you’ll start thinking of something to do that won’t make you look stupid
~you’ll surf the net but then again you’re bored so you get tired thinking on what to search
~by the time, you never thought you’re already looking for food at the refrigerator
~eating all the stuffs you can get
~you’ll nibble on your phone and listen to music but then get tired of it because you here it everyday
~roll around the bed thinking of things even though it’s stupid
~sometimes when you roll around your bed, you’ll not even be able to think of things.
~now you’re already mad and after all those things you did you already find something to do.
Seriously, you’re saying you’re bored!? Would you just look at what you have done!? You already did so many things… don’t tell me you’re bored?
These are base on my own experiences when I’m bored. Now I’m not bored but I’m so frustrated by the fact that I do not know what else to write for another post!
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photos are for flashbacks
Yes, it’s over, I’m here all alone sitting at my couch… our couch before he left me for unknown reasons. Yes, I know, it’s over. But I really don’t know why.
I stood up walking aimlessly around the living room when I bumped myself on the mini table; I looked down to see the small, plain white colored box that I remembered to be the box in which our pictures together are in…
Out of nowhere, reflexes maybe, I grabbed the box, went back on sitting on the couch, sat in an Indian sit and opened it. Tears started rolling down my cheeks as I saw the same old cute smile, no one has seen but me and I have never gotten tired of seeing up until now even though he left me. That same messy, spiky, black hair, that same person who wears formal clothes everywhere he goes and that, that same blue eyes, blue as the morning sky that makes you look at and you think it’s looking at you right back… but I have got to remember he left me…
Photos are for flashbacks… I thought as I was about to start looking at the pictures. I breathed in then sighed, I brushed the tears off my cheeks but it still comes back and rolls again. I looked at the first photo, the two of us posing while the Eiffel tower was there at the background; the others are pictures of us in different countries. It’s all the same, one place to another. Smiling from one place to another… But no flashbacks…
Why’s that? What’s happening? Why aren’t those flashbacks flooding my mind? It’s suppose to flood in right?
I looked again… nothing. Again… nothing. And again… nothing.
It’s all the same!!! The same smiles, the same thing!!! Just different backgrounds… what’s wrong…?
It’s been 2 days, I’m sitting at my couch just like 2 days ago. Don’t worry, because now I know his reason on why he left. Photos are for realization not for flashbacks…
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lost generation by jonathan reed
I am part of a lost generation and I refuse to believe that I can change the world I realize this may be a shock but Happiness comes from within. is a lie, and Money will make me happy. So in 30 years I will tell my children they are not the most important thing in my life My employer will know that I have my priorities straight because work is more important than family I tell you this Once upon a time Families stayed together but this will not be true in my era This is a quick fix society Experts tell me 30 years from now, I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce I do not concede that I will live in a country of my own making In the future Environmental destruction will be the norm No longer can it be said that My peers and I care about this earth It will be evident that My generation is apathetic and lethargic It is foolish to presume that There is hope. And all of this will come true unless we choose to reverse it. Read the message, then read it again in reverse. i have seen this on my teacher's lesson at the avr just this afternoon. at first, i was mad about the message. it hurts so much, that the hairs on my arms stood!!! hehe. but when it was said to be reversed i immediately thought it was a master piece.so i searched it up in the net and found it on youtube.
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009
someone out there
Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.
Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy playing games,
And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.
If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?
If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?
(i got that from a blog i found at blogskins.com)
there are just things in this world girls can't say. but they do their best to get notice... but the thing is those girls don't even know that there is someone who laughs and smiles at her everytime she fidgets and everytime she tries hard. that one person who looks at you everyday wondering what your next action will be.
she'll never know... she'll never know all because she never looks that's why she never finds.
every girl falls in love with someone
but not every girl falls for the right one
she never knows there's another someone
who thinks of her as the one
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Monday, October 26, 2009
annabel lee
It was many and many a year ago In a kingdom by the sea, That a maiden there lived whom you may know By the name of ANNABEL LEE; And this maiden she lived with no other thought Than to love and be loved by me.
I was a child and she was achild, In this kingdom by the sea; But we loved with a love that was more than love- I and my Annabel Lee; With a love that the winged seraphs of heaven Coveted her and me
And this was the reason that, long ago, In this kingdom by the sea, A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling My beautiful Annabel Lee; So that her highborn kinsman came And bore her away from me, To shut her up in a sepulchre In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in heaven, Went envying her and me- Yes!- that was the reason (as all men know, In this kingdom by the sea) That the wind came out of the cloud by night, Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.
But our love it was stronger by far than the love Of those who were older than we- Of many far wiser than we- And neither the angels in heaven above, Nor the demons down under the sea, Can ever dissever my soul from the soul Of the beautiful Annabel Lee.
For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams Of the beautiful Annabel Lee; And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes Of the beautiful Annabel Lee; And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride, In the sepulchre there by the sea,In her tomb by the sounding sea.
this is a poem made by edgar allan poe. it is a very beautiful poem which made me smile as i read and sad at the end. it wa smy english teacher who suggested us to read it and i was really touched as i read it.
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manga!! manga!!! manga!!!!
rukia and ichigo (bleach)
ack!!! when did this happen!? how did this happen!? i cannot believe this happened!? i'm actually a rukia-ichigo fan and i really really really hate orihime!! but i never expected this to happen. i only saw this from a forum on one manga and i am not sure if this is true or only fanmade but about 80% of my thoughts say this is true, not yet uploaded and raw...
sweet black (manga)
this picture is from a manga called sweet black. i have read it at mangafox just about 3 weeks ago. a really cute and funny story. i just like the wit of the girl and the somewhat dimwit acts of the guy...
ousama game(shoujo)
the art is really nice, that makes me give a two thumbs up for the mangaka. the story is also a something, shall we say, unusually shoujo like. it somewhat becomes predictable at times but all-in-all it is an actual good read. i like the prince's character of being a little bit sadistic and the girl is really funny.
~and also i would like to thank mangafox.com cause that's where i found the photos!!!~
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advance happy halloween!!!
Me, my self and I, the actual me and not the other personas I use on my other posts, have experienced a reality check just last night. As I was to go home from my grandmother’s house, in which has been a very long ride it has come to me, something unusual. I was looking outside the car when I took the liberty of my spare time to go through a short sight seeing…
I was in the car looking outside the window that night. It was already 11 in the evening and the people in the car were silent. I was getting jaded and so something came up on my mind. I started looking if there are creatures in the dark that I can see. That maybe there’s a being out there that will make my heart skip a beat. I was wondering if I can see something, I did not know if I want to or it was just mere ignorance. As I was looking outside I can see unusual shapes in the dark but then realize it was just trees or posts. I get really scared when I take glimpse or at the corner in my eyes I can see things but when I look again there is nothing. But what caught my eye most was when we were passing the grassy part of the place I can see two silhouettes of men who weren’t moving at all… I have realized that there are creatures in this world that roams around with us, can see us but then again we can’t see them. Maybe, now, as you are reading this post of mine there is already something walking around your house or at your back watching you or maybe just maybe there’s something reading this post with you…BOO! Did I send shivers down your spine?
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Friday, October 23, 2009
a letter for my younger self
Good day! Yes, you… I have something to tell you… Care to listen?
Even though I never met you I bet you were someone I felt I was You made life worth while lived life until you grow older every year. When you get a year older you became someone else. The me now and the me before are two different people who once knew each other You took care of me at the past, I never thought I’ll take care of you but don’t worry I’ll take care of the future me.
You and I are different, different features and different body structure but the same being. Together forever until the future me withers…
This was based on the song sang by Angela Aki. It was a letter for her 15 year old self. But since I’m still thirteen, never been fifteen. I guess I should change the view on my perspective.
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Wednesday, October 21, 2009
love at the very first glance...
I would like to thank nobody08 who wrote the poem “one boy, one girl” (I would probably put in the poem she made here but I’m too lazy… sowe. ^_^) It made me make this post.
Hey, have you ever felt love at first sight? No? Are you serious!? Do you even believe in it? …no? What are you, a stone?
Let me tell you something, it’s not a poem neither it is a story but just something to prove that love at first sight does exist…
I was at the café I have always loved; I tell you it has the unsurpassed cappuccino in THE world. Yes, I’m always there on Sunday mornings. It’s like cappuccino and bacon croissant is the things I love to eat at breakfast. But this day… this very morning was really special, first time did it ensue to me that just by looking at the busy street you’ll find so many amazing things, fights, laughter, stories of other people, but this day, the very first time I realized that, was exceptional. It’s something you never thought will come true…
There I saw a guy, for the first time in my life did I notice him. He was holding a cappuccino same as mine. Maybe entered this café a while ago. He was reading these files while walking… who could do that!? But in an instance he glanced at a girl who was also walking and was about to pass by him. For me it was all so slow motion I was already seeing a love story. The girl also looked at him then smiled; he was flustered but then smiled back… The girl was already fidgeting while making circles of her hair. The guy was wearing a suite while the girl in a sunny dress. (I really don’t have to mention that but yeah…) And when they passed by each other they whispered a soft “hi.”
I know someday I’ll be seeing those two again; maybe I’ll still be here, staring at the busy street. Maybe by then they’ll be side by side, holding each others hands with a ring on their finger….
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Monday, October 19, 2009
the girls who were derelict by HIM
I hate you!!!! You… you stupid….. CHARMER!!!!
Why do you make all those girls fall for you? You make them love you, make their hopes, You make them brag that they had a date with you, Brag that you kissed them!!!! How… how dare you!? You smile at them with that oh-so charming smile, You utter the words “good morning” sweetly, as if they are princesses, You even TREAT them as princesses
Then you hurt them…
Do you know how much they cry? How much they had weep when you left them? What they felt when you shatter those dreamful promises… They had high hopes, that they will live a happily ever after with you… Do you know all that? Of course you don’t!!!!
You’re a player! You’re a jerk! You don’t care! You NEVER care! ~THAT’S WHAT THOSE GIRLS WHO YOU TORN APART SAYS~
I’ll never feel that, no way am I gonna feel that. Those mix emotions of sadness, bitter love, madness and sorrow… Who do you think I am!? You still don’t realize…?
I’m just the girl that made the player whom you fell for (but never caught you) quit the game...
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Sunday, October 18, 2009
World Beyond Compare
The world other people have are monstrosity, while others are the world where the rags and riches were cuddling them. I never really thought about this until some time before… I already grew tired of looking at those poor people in the streets. You might say I’m looking in a different view, in a different pace and drawing another line from all the others.
I’m not saying that I’m not poignant with the fact that they are having a hard time in their lives but in my view I the world does not revolve around them for the world grow pity on them. For they have already took away their pride from them but the fact that they do not do anything to achieve their goals and don’t try hard. They just ask for money, I’m pointing out those beggars on the street, who are still strong enough to make things out from their lives. I am pitiful for those who really can’t do anything but my eyes grew wide of disconcert when I knew about this beggar at school in which the money he earns from “taking away his pride” as they call it, was seen at the karaoke house, wasting his money for nothing… is that even right?
The world other people have are monstrosity, while others are the world where the rags and riches were cuddling them. But not every instance the unfortunate is those who are always petrified and pitiful…
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Saturday, October 17, 2009
The Ugliest Beauty
Her beauty is admired she is very refined all in every peoples mind the truth they'll never find that beauty she'll never surrender not now, not ever the fake smiles she'll pamper is a thing that gets better and better what kind of beauty she has? you'll never guess the ugliest beauty without traces do you know? she has 2 faces she backstabs, torns everyones wishes yes, she has the ugliest beauty, beauty had possess this was for my english project and i came up with tihs poem thanks to ami kawashima when i was watching toradora! and the episode was when ami told the stalker... i don't remember the exact words but something like this "it doesn't matter if i'm a bitch as long as i'm beautiful" thanks ami for saying those... not so...nice...words... ehehehe.